I Feel Better When Nobody Remembers I Exist

Dmaj7* G5add#11* N.C. I think I feel more relieved when no one remembers I exist, Dmaj7* Because the butterflies in my stomach have flown through my heart and are stuck in my throat, N.C. G5add#11* G* And I think for once I´m okay with being alone. N.C. No one cares when you cry, N.C. They´re only there when you smile, Dmaj7* Sometimes I wanna reverse it all back to when I was a child, N.C. Dealing with scarred knees instead of scarred wrists, N.C. Not feeling the urge to crash my bike... G5add#11* G* Will you remember me, when I´m gone? N.C. The city is so busy yet no one can see the tears on my cheeks, Dmaj7* Because I painted them blue so they would blend in, N.C. I tried to paint my blackened heart red again so it will beat faster, N.C. G5add#11* But I don’t know why I even bother. G* Tell me, N.C. If I float face down in a river this Tuesday who will be my lifeguard? Dmaj7* Dmaj7* Will the fish feed on me so at least I have a use? Dmaj7* Or will I just decompose wake up, wake up Dmaj7* G5add#11* I turn my pockets inside-out, so you’ll see that I´m empty, G5add#11* G5add#11* I´ll hold on tight to the last text that you´ve sent me, G5add#11* G5add#11* I´m so weak. They say one foot in front of the other, Dmaj7* But it´s hard when your own shoelaces are out to get you, Dmaj7* Dmaj7* Dmaj7* They say one day at a time, but it´s hard when even the sun glares at you with angry eyes, G5add#11* G* Humpty-Dumpty sat on a wall, but then he realized he didn´t have anything to live for at all, G* So he had his great fall! G* Dmaj7* Dmaj7* My own fantasies, my own cartoons in my mind can even be an escape, Dmaj7* Dmaj7* I´m backed in a corner, but I don´t have the strength to choose fight or flight. Dmaj7* So I give up and let it overtake me, G5add#11* G5add#11* If you have a second, maybe you can hear what I preach, N.C. Maybe you can watch me nail my hands on this wall, N.C. Maybe you can listen to me spread my religion of pain. N.C. Because it´s all that I know how to deal with this. Dmaj7* Dmaj7* Dmaj7* Dmaj7* G5add#11* G5add#11* G* G* Dmaj7* Dmaj7* D* D* G5add#11* G5add#11* G* G* Dmaj7* Dmaj7* Dmaj7* Dmaj7* G5add#11* G5add#11* G5add#11* G5add#11* G* G* G* D* G5add#11*