Im Not Okay

Am Tonight the monsters in my head G F Are screaming so damn loud Am But I built walls so high C F So they never even make a sound Am It's a mask, it's a lie G F It's the only home I've ever known Dm Cause being who I really am F Has only left me more alone Am F C I am not okay F C And I need you to see it Am F C I have so much to say F C And no one to hear it Dm Fm The reason I keep quiet F With so much at stake Dm Fm I always feel like a burden F Let it silence me Dm Fm You'll never understand F Why its so hard to say Am I'm not okay Am G I wish I had a scar, had a bruise on the surface F Any kind of proof Am C F That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse Am My life's invisible abuse G Fm I'm either judged or have to hide Dm The only symptom you can see F Is I don't wanna be alive Am F C I am not okay F C And I need you to see it Am F C I have so much to say F C And no one to hear it Dm Fm The reason I keep quiet F With so much at stake Dm Fm I always feel like a burden F Let it silence me Dn Fm You'll never understand F Why its so hard to say G I'll never have the words Am F I can't explain this hell G But what if it kills me Am C If I keep it to myself F To myself Am F C I am not okay F C And I need you to see it Am F C I have so much to say F C Dm And no one to hear it C I'm not okay F I'm not okay C I'm never safe Dm It's not a phase Am C If I finally break F Would you still stay Am Tonight the monsters in my head C F Are screaming so damn loud