These Drugs

B B I don't wanna do drugs anymore B If you saw me through the eyes of a bathroom stall G#m Your skin would crawl, I'm high G#m But I am not a sycophant for a good time B I only wanted to escape my mind B For one night, know what happiness feels like E But the nightmare I'm ignoring is darker in the morning B It's a band-aid on a broken arm G#m It's a siren sounding out alarm G#m A messed up version of self-harm B And it's louder than a cry for help B When I destroy my mental health E Because I don't respect myself B G#m Every time I take these drugs to pick me up E All I ever do is cry B G#m Every time I take these drugs to pick me up E All I ever do is cry B I don't wanna go to bed alone B So I let another stranger take me home G#m I drink to numb the pain G#m And you would do it too if you would share my brain B Everybody that I love gets hurt B And I'm learning to believe that I just deserve E The demons I'm ignoring and the regret in the morning B It's a total domino effect G#m A prison cell inside my head G#m A trauma that I can't forget B And it's louder than a cry for help E When I destroy my mental health E N.C. Because I fucking hate myself B G#m Every time I take these drugs to pick me up E All I ever do is cry B G#m Every time I take these drugs to pick me up E All I ever do is B E Cry, cry, I only ever G#m E Cry, cry I only ever B E Cry, cry I only ever G#m E Cry, cry I only ever E F#m Damned if I do and bored if I don't G#m And I should get clean again but I won't B I told you that I don't need help E Because I lie to my...self F#m I'm damned if I do and bored if I don't G#m And I should get clean again but I won't B I wanna be someone else E Because I'm scared of my...self F#m G#m F#m Sometimes I'm scared of myself B G#m Every time I take these drugs to pick me up N.C. All I ever do is cry B G#m Every time I take these drugs to pick me up E All I ever do is B E Cry, cry I only ever G#m E Cry, cry I only ever B E Cry, cry I only ever G#m E B Cry, cry I only ever cry