Jon The Dead Husband

C F I remember I pause, I sit in bed C F Worried about you what’s inside your head C F You said you’d be here but you shoot instead C F Now I feel empty life amounted to drugs Am F C Is the heroin  better? am I not enough? F G C Apparently not it must be good stuff Am F C Oh I’m straining to tell you it’s draining my love C F C I put my face down crossed arms like your brother C F C I can’t come over because of your mother C Am F She can’t accept that you might like dicks F C Pause to remember you want to quit F C But you can’t, you’re too sad Am F C You’re a drug addict just like your dad F Am F They didn’t say where your grave was after you passed F G C And I still can’t look in the mirror and admit that this happened C F Oh I love you but it’s time for divorce Am F It’s not reciprocated because you are no more C F I want to love again without feeling guilty Dm F It feels like your ghost is trying to bill me C F For some dinner we had 5 years ago Dm F C You know that I love you now please god let go C Am F C I didn’t want to wake up from my nightmare because youre in it C Am F C Cause when I wake up I feel like I’m finished C Am F C Every positive is all still diminished C F G Am Till I pull it together and close off the prison F C It’s a mask that I put over my tragic past G Dm It’s a film of fake security over a cast F C That keeps me together, that keeps me at ease G Dm Still makes it hard to speak, still makes it hard to breathe C F What do I say when I can’t hear my thoughts? C F What do I say when clouded judgement floats my way? C F C F What do I say when I shrug you off? C F C F C What do I do when these things prevent me from connecting to you F G F C Bm F When these things prevent me from connecting to y-o-o-ou F C E F What do I do what do I do? C F C What do I do what do I do? C F C What do I do what do I do? C F C What do I do what do I do? F C