Theres Alot Going On

Cm A# Yeah, this just my life D# Front to back, top to bottom Cm G# Everything's changing around me D# These days don't feel the same Cm G# We all lost faith and lost family D# Why must we play this game? Cm D# Lord have mercy on me I've been a sinning man C3m A Pull out my wings, jump off the bridge D# And crash in a plane, if I never land Cm G# D# Know I never die Cm G# D# We live forever in my mind Cm G# D# And I sanctify Cm G# D# We live forever, still alive Cm There's a lot going on but I stick to the ones I love A# I never claimed to be a perfect man but name a great man who was Cm G# Consequences of my actions in the past years had me stressing out D# It was like, May, I just moved to L.A, I was tryna figure it out Cm G# Medication for depression that I cut cold turkey, had the kid manic D# In an episode out in Hollywood, wilding out like Nick Cannon Cm A# Railing Adderall pills out a dollar bill, on the bathroom floor D# Clean the whole mess up with my nose, what the f**k I need a vacuum for? Cm G# New York City on my birthday, June 6th, 2014 D# I had that first meeting with Hov, plus I brought out the whole team Cm G# I drank that whole bottle of D'usse Ty Ty gave me that night D# When we left the club, at the Rap Genius house me and shorty got into a fight Cm G# She came out the room swingin', hit me in the jaw I was really tryna fend her off But I ended up in the closet with my hands around her neck I was tripping, dawg Cm Too proud to apologize or empathize, I blamed it all on her D# A# Saying that she hit me first, even though she was the one hurt Cm G# I was really just reflecting all the hurt that I was feeling from the band's rejection D# When Kids These Days split, that shit felt like a c-section Cm G# And my infidelity and jealousy with Natalie on top of the amphetamines D# And the ecstasy had me tryna drown face down in the Chesapeake Cm G# The next month I dropped "Down on My Luck" and had Europe going nuts D# But I couldn't even appreciate it at the time, I was going through too much G# Now I had to leverage million dollar label deals on the table for my records D# A# In Ibiza eating paella on the roof, tryna choose over breakfast Cm Hov wasn't with the bidding war, but I knew the Roc just felt right Cm When I saw Kanye at Wireless, without T-Pain, still a good life Cm G# Felt so close when Mr. Hudson introduced me to him backstage D# He prolly don't even remember that shit... like a bitch off Backpage Cm A# But at that stage, I was ready to swing for the fence like a batting cage Cm G# At the same time, I was winding down a low point in my addict phase Cm The Adderall started wearing off and I went into a deep writer's block Cm G# All over a song that I couldn't finish that I wrote about signin' to the Roc Cm G# D# Isn't that ironic? I was feeling so psychotic Cm With the whole world excited for me and my idol saying I got it Cm G# Shit got bad out in L.A, so I moved back home to my mom's basement D# Linked up with Smoko and Papi Beatz and took it back to basics Cm G# Then I wrote "Rage," that was me screaming out through the pain D# And "U Mad," addressing my relationship with Natalie, it was too bad Cm G# The violence and the lies slipped suicide into my mental health D# I did acid in the studio one day and almost killed myself Cm G# As I started to fall apart, certain stars started to align D# Om'Mas came to Chicago in January at the perfect time Cm G# He said Kanye was working on an album, and Uzi played him one of our songs D# He was tryna fly me out, nigga, it was goin' down like the Dow Jones Cm G# Pulled up to Westlake, first day I was there, I recorded "Wolves" D# I knew I was the one, like Neo meeting with the Oracle Fm But I had to get a handle 'fore the door was pulled G# Crawled out on SNL D# All the niggas hating on me back home lookin' at me like, "FML" Cm G# A lot of people coming out the wood like, "Let's work," tryna network D# All the pressure making my head hurt, the molly wouldn't let the meds work Cm G# At this time it's like Feb. 1st to the 15th, and I'm still addicted D# Frustrated, writing shit for Ye, tryna visualize someone else's vision Cm G# Then he laid that verse on "U Mad" and we made the shit the single A# Ye and Hov getting into it over me, tryna do a joint venture Cm A# And GO.O.D Music still fam, but it's that Roc boy SAVEMONEY life D# A# Took the bus out on the road for the Traffic tour, did a hundred nights Cm Cleaned out my closet, I got rid of all of my demons D# If you learn one thing from my journey, nigga it's don't stop believing Cm G# When this shit got so suffocating I could barely even keep breathing D# Wrote my wrongs all in this song now I'd like to welcome y'all to my season Cm G# D# A# Cm Nigga I'm gone Cm G# D# Know I never die Cm G# D# We live forever in my mind Cm G# D# And I sanctify Cm G# D# We live forever, still alive