Spitting Image

C Am F F C Am F F I'm not gonna be able to go see a doctor for a long time, 'cause C Am F F I'm ashamed to show the many cuts that were punctured with a blunt knife C Am F F It's easier to deny and to lie about the impact C Am F F I had a seven-year running start never crossed the line to finish Em C So when I close my eyes to think about it, I have to be brave Em C I have to use the muscles around my stomach to hold my back in place F G I feel it starting in the back of my head and shooting down my neck C F But I'm not here to fight it C F And I'm not here because I like it C Am F F C Am F F C Am F F I'm not gonna be able to go up to your doorstep for a long time C Am F F Because you caught me in the first few days when my intuition fell quiet Em C I tried to keep you at arms length, but every look gave me away Em G Now I keep shutting down at every mention because it hurts less to escape C F G I walk slower when my guard is down, letting you keep up the chase C F So now I'm here to fight it C F Because I can't be here unless I like it C G F We grow up and become C G F The spitting image of G C Who we didn't want to be C Am F F C Am F F Am Dm D D Am Dm D D C Am F F Every once in a while I am reminded of that morning C Am F F When her spirit felt material and I knew that she was listening Em C I sat up silently in bed wondering who'd be next to call Em C But I had to wait another minute to let everything go F G I still feel shocking pangs of helplessness whenever I'm alone too long C F And I didn't leave her, she left me C F It's not about blaming, it's about history C F Look out here comes the hostility C G F We grow up and become C G F The spitting image of G C Who we didn't want to be C