Growing Sideways

G* Bm* So I took my medication and I poured my trauma out C* On some sad-eyed middle aged man's over-priced new leather couch Em* G* And we argued about Jesus finally found some middle ground C I said I'm cured G Bm And I've divvied up my anger into thirty separate parts C Keep the bad shit in my liver and the rest around my heart Em G I'm still angry at my parents for what their parents did to them C But it's a start Em G But I ignore things and I move sideways C G Till I forget what I felt in the first place C G D At the end of the day I know there are worse ways to stay alive Em 'Cause everyone's growing G And everyone's healthy C G I'm terrified that I might never have met me C G Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty D I guess I'll drive G I guess I'll drive G So I forgot my medication Bm Fell into a manic high C Spent my savings at a Lulu Now I'm suffering in style Em Why is pain so damn impatient G Ain't like it's got a place to be C Keeps rushing me Em G But I ignore things and I move sideways C G Till I forget what I felt in the first place C G D At the end of the day I know there are worse ways to stay alive Em 'Cause everyone's growing G And everyone's healthy C G I'm terrified that I might never have met me C G Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty D I guess I'll drive C G And if all my life was wasted Em D I don't mind I'll watch it go C G D It's better to die numb than feel it all C G Oh if all my time was wasted Em D I don't mind I'll watch it go C G D It's better to die numb than feel it all Em G But I ignore things and I move sideways C G Till I forget what I felt in the first place C G D At the end of the day Lord knows there are worse ways to stay alive Em 'Cause everyone's growing G And everyone's healthy C G I'm terrified that I might never have met me C G Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty D I guess I'll drive G I guess I'll drive